One exam and two papers to go. My first exam today went... okay. It was no slam dunk, but it also wasn't terrible. But I know for sure that I did not get a 100% and that's scary to me. So I went to my advisor and asked her to tell me that it's okay not to get a 100% on everything, and she said "NOS, you can drop by, email me, call me anytime and I will tell you over and over that you don't need to get a 100% on everything." I told her that I'm afraid that I will get bad grades and then I won't be able to do the things I want in life, like go to graduate school. She said that even mediocre grades from my uni (I go to a very reputable school-- one of the top universities in the country) will get me far. And that was really comforting.
I think the problem right now is that I have all of these assignments and exams in the next few days and I'm not at all confident. I can't tell if I'm doing well or I'm doing poorly. And uncertainty, as you may remember, I am not very good at coping with uncertainty. I like to have complete control over everything, and when things are up in the air it's really scary.